Today, I want to get personal and share a few fears I have as a mother. I often wonder and question my abilities, methods and ways on improving my current habits to form new ones. All of this to ensure I am doing my best and giving my all. I may describe myself as a proactive mother, I like to get my hands dirty to get the job done. I like exploring new topics and understanding old ones in a new light. It all comes down to our intentions, right? Everyone says there is no right or wrong as motherhood comes with no manual. But I disagree, (to some extent). I believe our instincts and intuition guide us to what is right and refrain us from what is wrong; only if we listen carefully. And the love we have in our heart is our manual. Then one might say, motherhood is MASTERING the skill to listen and observe carefully to what we have inside within us, after all that is where our babies came from.
Besides, my most internal fears of what I think inside, the more accurate and realistic fears are what is really happening in reality. Are they safe? Are they happy? Am I raising a healthy child? Do they know they are loved? These questions often come to me late at night, as I lay in bed, watching my beautiful kids sleeping through the baby monitor. Since having my first born, Surah I constantly wake up at night to check her breathing and only then can I rest in my bed again. My husband is more relaxed about it and thinks I will drive myself nuts if I continue. Now I thought maybe I was a new mom and my husband might be right, I am over-thinking. But then Miraj came along, and I am STILL doing the same thing to both of them now. I wake up a few times at night just to make sure they are breathing otherwise I am bothered if I don’t check.
I started looking into breathing monitors, as there are a couple models out there. But after some digging, I recently started using MonBaby’s Smart Breathing Monitor. It’s a Smart Button I attach to Miraj’s PJS/onesie and I monitor him through the MonBaby app on my phone. Let me tell you why I choose this one over others: it is universal so I can use it as Miraj grows. It detects his breathing as well as his body position. The app lets me know if he has turned on his side or on his stomach and also detects any falls. And all the alerts will be on my phone. So, that was a selling point for me! I have tried it only with Miraj and wish I knew about it when Surah was born. Better late than never right! Thanks to MonBaby’s Smart Breathing Monitor, I’m catching up on my sleep!